I’m going to take a moment here to speak for both Bryon and myself when I say how great it has been doing Everyone Has A Podcast for the last twenty-three months. We have had some truly great and wonderful experiences while recording our weekly internet blathering. We’ve laughed. We’ve learned. We’ve met some exceptionally great people who have helped us along the way as we flailed blindly grasping to maintain some semblance of a show. I think we did it. In fact, I’ve learned that we did it even if we didn’t. Because there is no right or wrong way to do this. There is no formula. There aren't any classes (There are totally classes, but stay away. They just want your money). If you do something you enjoy, you’re automatically doing it correctly. If you put the time in, eventually you will start to find your voice. We have done it. We have also heard many other shows do it as well. Show’s that I once liked, I now love. I’ve heard people hit their stride, and it’s so inspiring to see/hear.
I remember the first time I listened to Bri Ari of ‘Brutally Blunt with Bri’. I immediately fell in love with her personality and cadence. I loved how she gushed over stories of small cute animals, and how laid back she was despite doing something as vulnerable as a solo podcast (They really aren’t easy, especially in the beginning). Other shows like ‘The Mike Jolitz Show’ ‘The World of Ro’ ‘The Naked Porch’ ‘Epic Film Guys’ ‘Now That I’m Older’ and ‘The Story Behind’ are all podcasts that I listened to at or near their inceptions—all of which now have their own unique sound and feel. There are so many others that I will give a little shout out to, at the end of this.
What I mainly wanted to talk about is what EHAP has meant to me. To give a little back story to this. I have worked with my co-host, Bryon, for the last six or seven years. He was someone I gravitated towards right away. We shared so many common interests, yet we were also so incredibly different, and I really feel like it has been the differences that have drawn us together. We are able to disagree with each other, and be okay with it. Sometimes one of us wins the other one over on a viewpoint. Growth!
It was Bryon who first said he was interested in doing a podcast. I remember thinking, “What a dumb idea”. But the idea must have stuck, because eventually we started recording what quickly became THIS podcast. Before we knew it, we had a website. We had a logo. We had an RSS feed (I think?). We had our first few listens, and before long we were actually interacting with people. It was (and still is) an unbelievable feeling of accomplishment. Accomplishment was a really nice added bonus, but it was not what I was seeking when we created EHAP. EHAP was more than that for me.
On January 7, 2015 my best friend and brother John, died of a drug overdose. I was in the room when it happened. I had just come off of a night shift where I had worked the previous day from evening until morning. I then drove the five hours to his home with plans of celebrating our birthdays together. My birthday fell on the sixth and his was on the ninth. He didn't look well, and said that he had the flu. I had known that he had been grappling with dependency on pain killers for his back. I had talked with him on many occasions, explaining the dangers of Oxycodone. I had ridiculed. I had preached. I had done everything I felt I could do, to persuade him to seek professional help—to the point where I felt I was becoming just another voice nagging at him. I didn't want that to be our relationship. I was naive and ignorant to the severity of the situation. I had even started to believe that he had things under control, and that I was coming off as insensitive to his pain. So I did nothing.
The last night he was alive, I showed up with beer and was surprised to see that he was not well. He had made no mention of having the flu over the phone. Each time that I called to give him my ETA, he was more and more excited. I realized later that he probably figured that if he told me he was sick, I might have rescheduled. (Probably would have. Who wants to have birthday party and worry about catching the stomach Flu?).
After a few drinks and some laboured conversation, he threw on a movie from Netflix. The movie was Ted. The beer mixed with the twelve hour night shift and the five hour drive took its toll on me. I told John that I was going to have couple hour power nap, if we were going to drink and hang out that night. I fell asleep on the couch right away, and when I awoke a few hours later the room was silent. Probably about as quiet as I have ever heard anything to this day. I stood up searched around and used the washroom before discovering him slumped over on the sofa in his living room. I knew immediately that something was wrong. I felt it in the room.
After trying to wake him, phoning 9-1-1, and performing CPR unsuccessfully. I was delivered the news from the Paramedics that night that he had passed away following a suspected overdose. It was a rough night. Week. Month. Year. It still is.
How depressing was that? Jeez. Oh, right, I had a point. Jumping into podcasting a month later with Bryon, was the perfect distraction for me. It gave me something to focus on that wasn’t grieving. I was able to slowly compartmentalize everything that was hitting me at once. I was able to work things out, and when I had enough, I slotted the gears into podcasting. I met people. I interacted with other podcasters. I talked with Bryon. Obviously, I still had a strong support group with my wonderful wife and kids as well as my other friends and family. The podcasting world helped fill in those important gaps, when others weren’t around.
So in summary I would just like to thank all of those we have met along the way, who have helped whether they knew it or not.
Nick (Epic Film Guys)
Emily (Classy Little Podcast, The Story Behind)
Shane (Now That I’m Older)
Courtney (Quadcast Podcast)
Mike Jolitz (The Mike Jolitz Show)
Theresa Crout (Artist and Friend)
Fear Innes (FearCast, FyfCast [despite the beef, there was a time before it that still matters])
Ray Christian (What’s Ray Saying)
Bri Ari (Brutally Blunt with Bri)
Mat (One Word GO! Show)
Roel Sanchez Jr. (Pick and Ro, The World of Ro)
Ray (The Naked Porch)
And anyone who has ever listened to our show, even if just to get the satisfaction of turning it off. If I have missed anyone, trust that I will  you in to this.
Here’s to a hundred more!